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Fame (ma non
troppo)
Mary Ellen Fieweger

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by Moritz Thomsen |
Moritz Thomsen loved pigs. In fact, he
began his writing career as a columnist for a trade journal
dedicated to pig farmers. That was before he joined the Peace
Corps at age forty-eight, while he was still living in California
where he, too, raised pigs. I think the reason he despised
Francisco Pizarro so thoroughly—in addition to the conqueror’s
starring role in the murder of millions of Latin American
Indians and the fact that he reminded Moritz of his father—was
because legend has it that the Spaniard spent the first half
of his life as a swineherd, and Moritz simply could not abide
that loathsome man’s association with so noble an animal.
Pigs
appear in all of Moritz’s works, always in a favorable light,
often in prose as elegant and eloquent as this description
of a large white sow in Bad News from a Black Coast.
The sow appeared on the beach every day at high tide, Moritz
wrote, and there she stood “in profound meditation
up to her shoulders in the sea while the breakers crashed
over her head. Something deep and awful drove her into the
sea; something deep and awful, poetic and unpiggish drew
her daily to contemplate the vastness and mystery of the
Pacific.”
At
some point Moritz realized he’d said just about everything
he had to say about the care and feeding of pigs, the satisfaction
of their physical needs, so he decided to explore the animal’s
higher nature, the care and feeding of the pig’s soul. His
first piece in that vein was a philosophical one he said,
and lyrical to boot. But the editors were timid men. They
sent it back with a final check and a note thanking Moritz
for his services.
I
don’t know if those articles won for the author a following
among the pig breeders of North America, but the books he
wrote about his years in Ecuador and his travels in Brazil
did, a modest but loyal following among readers that grew
over the years. Moritz was just as loyal to his readers.
He never assumed that an author does any favors by writing
a book; it’s the reader who does the favor, and to whom the
writer is in debt, owing only his very best.
Moritz
was a meticulous writer. Sometimes I found him leaning against
the fence outside his apartment in Quito, notebook and pen
in hand, or sitting at the table inside, changing and changing
again a word or a phrase or sentence. He wrote first drafts
longhand and then, after much editing, typed a new draft
on his old Royal, until that was stolen, and later on a series
of cheap manual machines, each of which was also stolen.
He rewrote My Two Wars, four times, and was still
not satisfied with it when he died. And though, as he wrote
in the postscript to the Vintage edition of The Farm
on the River of Emeralds, he still searched the skies
for that “perfect reader,” someone he imagined would be young,
innocent, and romantic, he welcomed every last one, imperfections
and all, especially those who found their way to his doorstep
and those whose letters ended up in his hands.
When
Moritz moved to Quito, after his partner Ramón finally kicked
him off the farm in Esmeraldas, a surprising number of readers
did make their way to his apartment. Some were colleagues
whose works Moritz admired and whose praise convinced him,
for brief moments at least, that indeed he was a writer,
an exceptional one at that. Wallace Stegner, Paul Theroux,
Tom Miller, and Clay Morgan spent time with Moritz, as did
Eduardo Galeano, the Uruguayan author of Open Veins of
Latin America and Memories of Fire, works
Moritz admired for their eloquent, sustained rage. Someone
took a picture of the two of them and Moritz pasted it inside
the front cover of his signed copy of Open Veins.
One day the book disappeared. Moritz never got over the loss,
and for a long time suspected that I’d stolen it. Just for
the record, I didn’t.
Film
makers, mostly would-be, who wanted to make a movie of The
Farm, also found their way to Moritz’s door. One was
a woman who claimed to have slept with Marlon Brando, a thoroughly
unsatisfactory one-night stand, she reported, with a wealth
of details. She was a formidable woman, Moritz said, and
under the circumstances he, too, would have had performance
problems.
Isabel
Schaefer, my grandmother, met Moritz. She became a fan instantly,
smitten by his good looks before reading a word of the books
she took for him to sign. A few days later she skimmed the
first chapters of The Farm and, being a staunch
Republican, decided that Moritz’s views were suspect, which
he was relieved to hear.
Academics
loved Moritz. Some made his books required reading for their
courses. During summer vacation they came in gaggles. One
gentleman, an English teacher from a university out West,
came every year with his librarian wife. He taught something
called “Literature and Zen” and said that Moritz’s book,
the last on the syllabus, was the high point of the semester.
One afternoon the lit prof and his wife took turns reading
student papers inspired by Living Poor. One student wrote
that after reading Moritz’s book she would never again be
able to look at her own children without giving thanks that
their bellies were not bloated with writhing worms and pullulating
parasites. Most were in that vein. While the smile never
left Moritz’s lips, a small dose of that kind of adulation
went a long way. After an hour or so he asked if anyone wanted
coffee and, in passing, if they had heard the latest recording
of Debussy’s Concerto for the Left Hand, or maybe
it was Belshazzar’s Feast by Walton, something with
long stretches of fortissimo, and he put a record
on the turntable, the volume so high that even the pianissimo passages
could be heard in the street.
Another
regular visitor was a poli-sci prof who spent a semester
studying something in Ecuador. He was a small man, five-four,
or -five, and a Marxist with detailed Marxist analyses for
everything under the sun. One day he gave Moritz a copy of
an article he’d written about The Farm. It was very
serious, filled with words like “seminal” and “paucity.”
Moritz was pleased by this recognition in a scholarly publication
though not overwhelmed, it seems, because when I handed the
article back and asked, “How’s So-and-So, Moritz?” he thought
about that for a minute and then said, “He’s shorter.”
Then
there was Bernie, a young Ph.D. candidate—anthro—just beginning
his dissertation but already showing signs of academic promise.
He was doing research in Lago Agrio, an oil company town
in the rain forest, studying something like “Patterns of
Symmetrical Interaction and Reciprocal Acquisition and Transference
of . . .” and et cetera. Most of the time he held forth on
his “findings,” which involved “informants” who “exhibited
behaviors.” But every now and then he talked about people
(himself) and life (his own) and Moritz perked up. The Ph.D.
candidate was a compulsively tidy man who took four showers
a day. And he was being ground very fine indeed by life in
that jungle oil town: the filth, the heat, the drunks and
prostitutes whose very existence—not to mention their obscene
behavior in public—offended his sense of propriety,
while the rats that raced at night across the tin roof of
the pension he stayed at produced something akin to terror,
as did the enormous flying jungle cockroaches that landed
on his pillow, and the other species of cockroaches, just
as big, bigger, that skittered up the strings he hung from
the ceiling and to which he tied his toothbrush and paste.
His descriptions, dead serious, of that godforsaken place
were those of a man absolutely convinced that he had landed
in the very heart of the heart of darkness and that survival
was by no means a foregone conclusion.
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by Moritz Thomsen |
Moritz’s favorite academic
was Mickey Perloff, a philosopher with whom he talked about
books, music and those matters he spent a lifetime thinking
and writing about: life and death, good and evil. During
one visit, Moritz opened a Bible and read a verse, from Exodus,
I think, where God shows His “backside” to the Israelites.
That’s what it said. Moritz interpreted this passage as the
Supreme Being’s views on human beings in general. But while
he enjoyed discussing philosophical issues with Mickey, Moritz
decided that the philosopher wasn’t to be trusted with practical
matters because in a letter dates simply “Tuesday ?,” written
sometime in 1990, he said, “If I die, don’t tell Mickey until
I’m buried. He would misplace me on the way to the funeral.”
Not
long after, and just a few months before he did die (an event
Moritz anticipated for fifteen years or more, which became
a sort of standing joke among friends: Q: “How’s Moritz”
A: “Still dying.”), Moritz met anthropologist Lynn Hirschkind,
also a farmer, who had just written an article comparing
Moritz’s The Farm with Black Frontiersmen by
Norman Whitten, the don of Ecuadorian
anthropology. Both books are about the residents of the same
black fishing village on the Coast, and there the similarities
end. According to Whitten, the community he studied is well
nigh heaven on earth: a world of reciprocity, egalitarianism,
and “differential prestige” (i.e., a place where nobody’s
interested in power, where the concept doesn’t even exist).
Moritz, on the other hand, wrote about a place where people
sometimes steal and lie, as they do the world over, and where
violence, hunger, misery, and death are constants. Hirschkind
concludes that Whitten’s work is “weak,” “misguided,” and
“blind,” whereas Moritz’s book provides credible, compelling
insights into the people with whom he lived and worked for
fourteen years. While Moritz was delighted by all the wonderful
reviews his agent and editors sent over the years, Lynn’s
article (published in Ethnography in 1991), elevating
him to the serious academics no less, was somehow more, better.
Letters
from readers were always welcome as well, and they became
a high point of Moritz’s day after he moved from his last
farm and settled in Guayaquil, Ecuador’s largest port city,
where he had no friends, because his emphysema made living
in the high altitude of Quito, where he did, a torture. In
1988 or 1989, Moritz began saving theses in a folder he labeled
“Fan Mail.” He answered every one. This amazed some of his
admirers. Kelly Green wrote that “of all the writers and
musicians I’ve ever written to, you aree the first to respond.”
And the nursery school teacher signed off with “Don’t fucking
die yet, OK? Christ, it takes me so long to find a good writer.”
Eugene Stech said how very pleased he was to get a letter
from Moritz because “I had a mental picture of sacks and
sacks of fan mail reaching you from all over the world.”
It wasn’t quite like that, but there was a steady trickle,
one or two letters a month, on average. Some fans asked for
advice on how to find an agent or publisher or job in South
America. Others had concerns beyond the personal. Elsie Hansen
wanted to know if now, with his “many years of experience,”
Moritz had “any thoughts on how people could have a little
more even slice of the basic good things. I am poor and old
but I see so much waste and long to share in a sensible way
with all those hungry and ragged. Even the Salvation Army
throws away good stuff.”
Brad,
a young writer, had high praise for The Saddest Pleasure,
and concluded by announcing that “I can’t wait to be a crusty
old writer someday so I can say whatever I want and have
it all sound marvelous.” Mary Sharry congratulated Moritz
for his “remarkably unschooled” writing, and Barbara Whirlwind
Soldier said, “I hope one day to meet you and shake your
hand. ( I would also like to meet Jacques Cousteau.)”
A
lot of fans compared Moritz’s works to those of Wendell Berry,
Paul Theroux, Wallace Stegner, and other writers. Some said
that his books were just as good; others swore they were
better, and those readers won a very special place in Moritz’s
heart. (Unlike the reviewer who after reading, presumably, The
Saddest Pleasure, compared it to Shirley MacLane’s books.
When I asked whether favorably or un- Moritz snapped, “Does
it matter?”)
Then
there was Moritz’s most faithful fan, (Mrs.) Kay Millet (that’s
how she typed her signature). She handled his father’s trust,
doling out the bi-annual interest payments. (The money in
the trust was scheduled to go to the Humane Society after
Moritz died, for research on contraceptives for cats.) Her
first letter, dated March 29, 1988, was very bankerly, with
descriptions of things like the “Covered Call Option Selling
in the Capital Appreciation.” Those modest checks and the
even more modest royalties his books earned were Moritz’s
sole source of income after he left the farm, and most of
the money he gave away to neighbors from the fishing villages
he head lived in as a Peace Corps volunteer and farmer. He
equipped Ester Prado’s restaurant in Quito after Ramón, Moritz’s
partner on the farm, left her for another woman; he paid
for cataract surgery for a young fisherman almost blind after
years in the sea’s glare; he sent Ramón , Jr., his partner’s
son, off to Europe, the grand tour, he joked, which turned
out to be another one of Moritz’s not entirely successful
projects because, a few weeks after arriving in France, Ramón
wrote begging for money for a ticket back and Moritz said,
“why not? How can Paris possibly compete with Esmeraldas?”
Under the circumstances, investment strategies were not a
priority. Maybe Mrs. Millet realized this. Or maybe she’d
read Moritz’s books in the meantime, because her February
26, 1990 letter is considerably less bankerly: “I tittered
at your June 15, 1989 letter and even laughed out loud reading
your February 10 letter. I know you will find that hard to
believe because it is a well known fact that bankers have
no sense of humor.” She is referring, as regards that last
letter, to the fact that by then I was handling Moritz’s
financial affairs as he seldom left his apartment anymore
because his emphysema had taken a turn for the worse. When
the first trust check I endorsed got back to the bank, Mrs.
Millet apparently suspected that in his senescence, Moritz
had fallen into the clutches of a grasping female, a suspicion
she expressed with utmost tackt. He was putting her fears
to rest with a letter one day when I arrived for a visit,
assuring Mrs. Millet that while “Mary Ellen is as cute as
a button, there has been no hanky-panky between us.” I had
long since outgrown the button stage by then.
A
year before he died, Moritz and his banker began discussing
funeral expenses and the trust fund. Mrs. Millet explained
that the amount available depended on interest accumulated
and, thus, on timing: If he died right after a payment had
been made, there wouldn’t be much money for the final disposition
of his mortal remains, but if he did it right before a payment
was due, he could “plan for a grand sendoff.” That this was
a point of contention is apparent from Mrs. Millet’s closing
remarks: “It appears that you will continue to disagree with
the bank, the lawyers, and the establishment in general. Enclosed
is the June trust check with which you may do battle.” And,
in her last letter, Mrs. Millet wrote that she had “noted you
signing off Moritz Thomsen II. Does this mean there are two
of you? I don’t think we can handle it.” |

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by Moritz Thomsen |
The wonder is that so many readers with
nothing in common, apparently, with one another or with Moritz,
were able not only to handle but to admire, even to love,
the writer and his works. Moritz was a man perpetually concerned—obsessed,
some said—with poverty, misery, pain, injustice, and death,
always death, usually outrageous, senseless death brought
on , directly or indirectly, by a global division of resources
from which those readers benefited, one and all, and as a
result of which the people he wrote about suffered. What
did that odd collection of fans—bankers, widows on social
security, nursery school teachers, writers, academics—find
in Moritz’s works powerful enough, moving enough, to bring
them to write a letter to thank the author, to ask him to
write more?
There’s
a scene early on in Peruvian writer Alfredo Bryce Echenique’s
novel, La vida exagerada de Martín Romaña, that’s
always reminded me of Moritz, and that explains, in part,
at least, what it is that readers find so irresistible about
his works. The protagonist is drowning, in plain view of
a yacht where passengers have just sat down to a sumptuous
lunch on deck. “The yacht rose on gigantic crests of water
and I sank in oceanic abysses. . . I appeared and disappeared.
I disappeared with tears in my eyes, but always preparing
a little smile for my next appearance.” (Translation is Mary
Ellen’s)
That
smile, often rueful, is a constant in Moritz’s works. Time
and again fans wrote about how they laughed out loud reading
his books, and some mentioned crying. Readers identify with
the “harmless crackbrain, wandering lost, dazed, and speechless
in a strange and distant country,” as Moritz describes himself
in Living Poor. But no matter how lost and dazed,
he’s always there, interpreting the action for us in his
inimitable voice. And because the action in question is often
brutal in the extreme, he’s also there to cushion the blow.
Those descriptions of poverty and suffering and death are
mixed with humor, sometimes biting, often black, but humor
nevertheless. Moritz’s timing was exquisite.
But
there was something more, a way of being most of us experience
during childhood and then grow out of too soon. In bad News
Moritz explains how, even before learning to read, he spent
hours with the lavishly illustrated books his Aut Inga bought
for him, studying the pictures and making “wild dialogue
with the characters.” One of those illustrations, a woodcut
by N.S.Wyeth in Daniel Defoe’s Robinson Crusoe was
especially memorable, and he studied it “every day dor months,
it was so loaded with one man’s horror and with premonitions
of unspeakable dangers just around the corner.” He begged
someone to read the caption to him. “But this was seventy
years ago, and I no longer remember the words. . .except
for a single work, a word so strong, immediate, fierce, and
magic that it wiped out everything to stand alone, a mountainous
and paralyzing symbol for the power of a single word. “Thunderstruck
. I stood there thunderstruck.””
Tha
t word sums up how Moritz went through life. Art and literature
and, above all, music left him thunderstruck, as is evident
in his reaction, in The Saddest Pleasure, on hearing Uirapurú by
Brazilian composer Villa-Lobos: “the chords suddenly open
up, swelling, the man’s arms stretched out and the feathers
growing, and the arms turning into great wings, the bird
soaring away over the black water of a jungle lake, over
the great jungle trees, Jesus.”
And
Moritz was perpetually thunderstruck by his neighbors on
the Coast of Ecuador. This is his description of Wai, a fisherman
from Rio Verde, in Living Poor: “He wasn’t a giant
exactly, but in this country of small, delicate people, his
six feet and 190 pounds gave him all of the qualities of
a monument. He was thirty –four years old, and the amazing
thing about his face was that there was nothing written on
it, absolutely nothing. It was as pure and open, as free
from vice, passion, sadness, or terror—in short, from life
itself—as the carved alabaster mask of an Egyptian god. .
.Looking at him you knew that his rags, made doubly conspicuous
in the midst of all the Christmas finery, were only a disguise.
He had arrived on earth to test mankind.”
And
he was thunderstruck, right up to the end of his life, by
living beings not human. There is that nameless white sow
contemplating the mysteries of the Pacific, and Ana, the
hen with delicate feelings, who nested in his lap when it
was time to lay another egg, and Ramona, the cow who nearly
crushes him with her displays of affection, and , just a
few years before he died, an anonymous bird he observed one
day, described in Bad News, a “brave gymnastic genius. .
.a rural Rachmaninoff making music of physics.” Watching
the bird, Moritz realized that, “in the scale of values,
we are all of equal weight. We are both of us matter charged
for a flashing instant of time with energy and with feelings
of joy or pain. We are both of us essential to this moment,
neither of us more important than the other. . .Well,
haven’t I always known this? Yes, but in a negative way:
I am no more important than that wave breaking on
the beach. But now . . . I am moved to rephrase my deep feeling
of unity: I am as important as that bird, that gust
of wind, that bit of something that floats past in the flooding
river and that here as I watch joins finally the sea.”
That
“deep feeling of unity” Moritz experiences—with the bird, the
wind, the waves, the bits of floating debris—is what draws
readers to his books. His works are an antidote to a world
characterized by isolation and fragmentation, the worship of
the self, the demise of community. Because unlike so many writers
whose subject is themselves, black holes absorbing all light
and matter, Moritz offers himself modestly in his works, as
a window or a lese, and through his passionate interest in
beings and events beyond himself, the reader finds a whole
new world, by turns ugly and beautiful, foolish and sublime.
And invariably comes away thunderstruck. |
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